I have been living in denial people. It's true.
Over the past couple of months, I have been undergoing a transformation but I am not yet a beautiful butterfly. A year or so ago, I decided to take control of my artwork in a serious way. No longer shall it just be a hobby.
Let me start from the beginning.
Art has always been a constant in my life. In fact, it's been the only constant from as far back as I can remember. I can feel it with every fibre of my being. And yet, I can't shake off my day job. Well, I'm sure I'm not the only artist out there who has entered adulthood with the understanding that I, and I alone, am responsible for my life. Nobody is going to rescue me and quite frankly, nobody should have to. With this stark realization and the Disney illusion striped away, I realized I had 2 choices; become a hippy or do what millions have done; get a job.
Well, I hate camping and I'm not a fan of tie-dye, so that left the 'job' option. Groooooaaaaaannnnn! My soul has been recoiling in disgust ever since! It's a Jeckll and Hyde situation, each side of me hate the other for any choices I make. The arguments I have with myself are spectacular! Roof over my head vs. soul gratification, it's not an easy decision to make and there are tons of components of for and against each side.
So why not be a full time artist?
"Oh no", I'd tell people, "I don't want my passion to become a chore, I don't want something I enjoy to become a burden, a pressure, another 'to-do' with consequences". You know what that is don't you everybody? That's denial that is. That is fear talking. It's time to get my sh*t together.
I'm ready. I'm going to put myself out there, I'm ready to really mean it. But how? Well, we'll discover together what is a hit and what is a miss.
So, I have begun a journey to change my lifestyle, my goals and embrace the force that drives me. I am going to transform my art into a way that will be the grand exit right from the day job.
Every so often and probably very inconsistently, I'll add my experiences and I hope you'll join me on this crazy adventure!
Also, as I'm way in over my head and have absolutely no idea what I'm doing, any feedback will be greatly appreciated!